Today, I experienced something .. that I’ve never really felt like I experienced before. I’ve always felt that I’ve been in the position to forgive someone, but today… I was forgiven in a way that confuses me. I don’t know how to make of the way this person has forgiven me. I don’t feel that I should be forgiven, and I don’t know how to react to it. But as I took the time to think… this act of forgiveness from my brother in Christ has brought me back to the cross. The cross doesn’t make sense. When we think about what Christ has done… it doesn’t make sense. And it shouldn’t make sense. Because we, as humans, as sinners, can never understand fully of what unconditional love is, what unconditional mercy is. God’s forgiveness is incomprehensible .. and I felt that I really saw a glimpse of that today. The way that God forgives us and shows mercy towards us … is his way of showing love to the world. This is how much he loves us, that he would send his one and only son to die on the cross for me, and everyone else, in order that I may be saved.
It’s crazy how God works. Definitely, I believe that God has a sense of humor. I used to encourage a very dear and close friend of mine back in high school, and I used to tell him of how good God is and how I’m sure that he’d be so different if he only loved with the love of Christ. And I found myself recently being encouraged by him and being told by him that there is a God that loves me so dearly. There are instances in life that are too “ironic” and “coincidental.” You know it’s God working. I am so blessed to see that God is using the very people in my life that I had once encouraged. This very friend introduced me to a well-made video that portray’s the gospel to us. The irony is, that I had watched a different version of this video in 8th grade. This was the first “Christian clip” that I had ever watched, and this was before I had accepted Christ. I was brought to tears as I watched this video of God’s great love for me. I found myself, once again, coming back to the cross, and pausing everything. Stopping the thought of grades, returning to family and friends, playing and enjoying spring break, and just doing anything else. I stopped and paused and thought about the gospel once more. God you are so good. And once again, you never stop pursuing me. And I thank you for always letting me count on the fact that you will always reach out to me.