This is inspired by my mom. I’ve always admired her as a spiritual role model of mine. At one point, I was jaded by those that were homeless and asked my mom why she gives money to them when they’ll just spend it on a pack of cigarettes or alcohol. And she told me, “Love on them. Tell them they’re loved by God. We can’t just ignore them when they’re God’s children.” From them on, I looked at them differently. Living in LA, it’s very common to see many homeless people wandering the streets. A little over a year ago, I met a man named Gino at a gas station. It was during the winter and extremely cold and he was waiting outside to raise money to take care of his two daughters back home. He wanted to send his older daughter to college, just like any other parent would. I got to know him, shared the Gospel with him, and prayed for him. Although I’ve never seen him again since that day, I hope that God has a great plan in store for him.
You see him.
He’s in the same spot as usual
The same clothes
The same smell
You know it from afar.
You’ve mastered the art.
Many of us have mastered it well.
The art is to ignore.
Cell-phone in hand.
Roll the windows up.
Eyes forward on the street ahead.
You stop breathing for the brief three seconds
Until you know the stench is bearable
Pretend he doesn’t exist.
If you don’t see him
It doesn’t hurt your conscience
Tell yourself you don’t have the money
Ignore the change in your pocket
Try to forget
Because if you forget, then the money isn’t really there
You don’t want to know.
Not knowing gets rid of the guilt.
And if you master this art, you are innocent
You create a barrier
A barrier between a human
Not just any human
A man that was created by God and loved
Many years ago
This man was a baby
Fragile, weak, and hungry
This man is no longer an infant
He is fragile, weak, and hungry
And because he is not an infant
Do you pretend he does not exist
Do you ignore
You think he is no longer a child
"He’s mature, he should take care of himself"
But you and I made a mistake
For he has always been a child and will always be a child of God
So how can we ignore.
Is ignoring Christ on that cross,
The one man who never ignored us.
The one man who never closed his eyes on us.
He did not just pretend we did not exist.
For he is the very one that brought us into existence.
He can’t ignore.
It has never been in his nature to do so.
Thank you God for having forgiven me first, in order that I may have the heart to forgive. The fact that you still love me doesn’t make sense, but I think that’s the point. Your love is crazy and it’s ridiculous because it’s something I will never completely understand. But thank you for loving me without any restraint in order that I may do the same. It’s so hard for me everyday to want to do so, but Christ’s sacrifice on the cross and resurrection makes it possible for me to do so.
This is in dedication to my mom. On upon having accepted Christ, her heart has only been for my brother and I to be able to truly encounter Christ into our lives and be transformed as she has. At one point, my mom came humbly to God and realized that no matter how much she does to push my brother and I to attend church, go to retreats, etc., there is nothing that she can ultimately do to change our hearts, for it is in God’s hands alone. This is the humility of my mom. (Also inspired from the story of Hannah in the Bible who prayed for a son, Samuel, saying that she would dedicate him to serve the Lord if the Lord provided her with a son.)
As a mom.
I want to do everything for my baby.
I want him to have it all.
And I’d do anything in my power to let him have it all.
But there’s this one thing I cannot do…
I cannot save him.
Even if I wanted to.
Because I have already failed my child.
I’ve failed from day one.
Not from my child’s birth.
But then again.
Isn’t there’s nothing that I can do for him?
Every safe car ride
Every pay check
Every meal placed on the table
Every heart beat
Does not everything have to work like clock-work
Does not the intricacies of the body have to be alert every waking moment of the soul
From the moment you are born until you moment you die.
Then it’s not one thing I cannot do.
There is nothing I can do.
Nothing I can do for my child.
For although I gave birth to him,
Haven’t I been given birth to?
Haven’t I been created?
Wasn’t I an in infant at one time.
I came into this world with nothing
But my naked self
I did not come into this world with
I came naked.
And do I dare say
That I am in control?
That I can take care of my own child?
That I can somehow save my child?
With my money
With my power
For it is his money
It is his power
I foolishly think these things are my own
As if it was all me
As if I’m the miracle maker
As if I’m entitled fully over this child
For giving birth to this child.
For my child’s soul
Belongs to God and God alone.
inspired by my own personal experience in hurting someone dear to me, but God’s grace is greater than my sins and his love is able to cover over my failures.
I love you, I care about you.
I can’t take it back
But I hurt you
I question my
I love you’s
I care about you’s
For if I do
How could I do such a thing
But I do love you
And I do care for you
But I am unable to perfectly love
For even in the midst of my
I love you’s
I care about you’s…
There is a tiny voice.
That is unseen.
For I know I do these things
Not just because
I love you
I care about you..
But because of my selfish desire
I love myself.
And I honestly
See my want
Greater than the price
You’ve been paid for
When I do this
I treat you like change.
I am sorry
For you are not worth
30 pieces of silver
You are so much more.
I cannot take this back
These things I’ve done.
But all I can say is
I am not perfect
But these words I leave
Is truth. Is hope. Is light.
There is someone,
I love you’s
I care about you’s
Are not lies
He loves you
Even when you hurt him
And even when you
I love you
I care about you
I wrote this poem in the perspective of a mother and a child if they were watching the crucifixion of Jesus Christ.
Mom, I don’t understand.
Is he a criminal too?
Mom, I don’t understand
He seems like such a nice man.
Mom, I don’t understand.
Tell me why, why does he have to die?
Honey, he is not a criminal.
He is a hero.
Honey, he is a great man.
He is perfect
Honey, he has to die.
He chose to die.
Mom, I still don’t understand why, why he has to die.
We are criminals.
We are not nice.
He is the perfect sacrifice.
That is why, why he has to die.
Mom, I still don’t understand.
It’s okay honey.
I do not fully understand.
No one can ever understand.
No mistakes this time.
You failed. You failed.
I can, I can.
You failed, you failed.
Again. Try again.
I … can’t. I can’t anymore …
But he can.
I am imperfect made perfect.
Now I can.
This poem was inspired by 1 Corinthians 10:13
I have not been here in forever, but I have recently been convicted to write poems that are Christian inspired. Here’s one I wrote recently.
I am sorry
that I love someone else.
I’ve cheated on you
but I don’t feel guilt.
I am a prostitute.
And I want to remain here.
It is foolish.
I know but I want to remain a prostitute.
So much of me is gone.
What is there to save?
But you came into the whore house.
And you took me out.
You took me back to the altar.
And as you allowed me to redo my vows
You looked me at the same way as you did
When I was first married to you.
And you smiled back at me
I love you.
I love how they never lost that connection from many years back. Still miss the fresh prince! (:
Seven Secrets of a Confident Woman
by Joyce Meyer
Secret #1 A confident woman knows that she is loved
The first and most important secret to being a confident woman is to know that you are loved by God unconditionally. Romans 5:8 says, …God shows and clearly proves His [own] love for us by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One) died for us. Even if your natural father did not really love you properly, you can still get the love and acceptance you missed in your childhood from God.
Secret #2—A Confident Woman Refuses To Live In Fear
I think you will agree that refusing to be led by our feelings can be a challenge, especially when it comes to fear. But we must remember that fear is not from God. It is the devil’s tool to keep us from enjoying our lives and moving forward with what God has for us. When we attempt to walk in faith, Satan immediately tries to hinder us through many things, including fear. Fear of failure, judgment or criticism will cause us to bury our talents. It will make us draw back and live in misery and torment. Unless we make a firm decision to “fear not,” we will never be free from its power.
Secret #3—A Confident Woman Is Positive
Being negative and being confident do not go together. Like oil and water, they just don’t mix. Being negative opens the door to a lot of problems and disappointments, which fuels the fire for more negativity. Fear is the “dark room” where all your negatives are developed. So why not look at the brighter side of life and believe something good is going to happen to you?
Secret #4—A Confident Woman Recovers From Setbacks
In this life you and I are inevitably going to experience setbacks. The important thing is that we not see them as failures. We are not a failure just because we try something that doesn’t work. It’s only when we stop trying that we fail. The truth is, many people get confused when they’re trying to figure out what they’re supposed to do with their lives. This was definitely true in my life. I discovered my destiny by trial and error.
Secret #5—A Confident Woman Avoids Comparison
It is impossible to walk in confidence and compare ourselves with others at the same time. No matter how good we look or how talented, smart and successful we are, there is always someone who is better than us. I believe that confidence is found in doing the best we can with what we have. God wants us to find joy in being the best we can be, not in competing or comparing ourselves with others.
Secret #6—A Confident Woman Does Not Live In “If Only” And “What If”
One of the worst things you and I can do is to focus on what we don’t have or have lost and fail to take an inventory of what we do have. I call it living in a state of “if only.” Does this sound familiar: “If only I had more education…more money…more opportunity. If only I were taller, shorter, older, younger…” and the list goes on.
Secret #7—A Confident Woman Takes Action
I have heard it said that there are two types of people in the world: those who wait for something to happen and those who make something happen. It’s true that we need to be careful not to get ahead of God, but we also must be mindful not to be lagging behind. I believe we need to step out into things and find out what God has for us. As I said earlier, if we make a mistake it is not the end of the world.
As a believer, Christ lives inside you, and you’ve got what it takes! I believe that as you seek the Lord and apply these seven secrets to your life, you too will begin experiencing the boldness and confidence God desires you to walk in.